Up at 6 nothing to do

Ok so I know this will bore you to death  but I am up at 6 with nothing to do. I woke up with a horrible nose bleed which can mean a number of things A) my room was too hot B) my cold is breaking C) my cold just got a whole lost worse. B/n me and you I am shooting for B. I love blogging but I haven't been as active as I should. I am trying this new thing where I become the person I want to be and for the most part its working out fine. Rome wasn't built in a day. There's nothing wrong with me per say, I would just like to get my grades up to a 3.6 or better and get into Harvard Law School. I am actually at a point in my life where I think it will work I just have to keep trying to get things done everyday and stop procrastinating. It's Fascinating because I want to go to Law School and I know I will be a great Lawyer I am just really scared that I will accomplish everything. Is it possible to be afraid of success? I hate to start a sentence with "all my life" but All my freckin' (thats better) life I have only had to get by no one asked me really hard questions, no one challenged me and now that there's a BIG challenge staring me in the face I'm kinda putting my toes out there in the water inch by inch. With God's help and the ancestors I know I will be fine-they have yet to let me down. Somewhere in me is a fire I just have to turn it up and burn all my insecurities.